Grubbled her last night. She on the amoroso and wanted to be nearer to me, that is have my drawers off, but I thought it better not. She would sleep in my arms and snored so shockingly I could scarce bear it. Gooded myself with thought of its being the last night. She seemed as if she was going to leave all she liked best and could scarce have enough of me, poor girl. She could hardly leave me in the morning and this made us so late. She was a little on the amoroso again. I touched and handled her and grubbled a little but would not do much. Miss W- & I down to breakfast at 9 ¾ [illegible] Captain & Mrs Sutherland began breakfast. She had given me last night the little bible – society for promoting Christian knowledge – promised me some time ago, having written on the fly leaf next the title page “February 18th 1833. Psalm 91.1” and on the back, at the end, “AW to AL.” I did not see this till tonight when I turned to the reference “For he shall give his angels charge over thee to keep thee in all thy ways.” And the sight of this affected me. Poor girl, what a pity she has not more mind to be happy herself and mane others so. She seemed to the last thinking of being back before I was off and of going with me. She said she should never let me leave England without her and once let slip that she must hear of me or she should write to me herself. I said I would tell Mrs Sutherland all I knew of my plans when I wrote. Should not be here longer than till the end of June at farthest but should be off as much sooner as I could.
Margin: Captain Sutherland recommends P Lawson & sons seedsmen, Edinburgh. They told him they secured cuttings from America stuck in a potato & Captain was thus taking some rose cuttings with him to the Highlands.
Miss W- & Captain S- went to Cliff Hill (for 20 minutes there) just after breakfast. Mrs S- and I sat chatting. She said yesterday she supposed Miss W- had fifteen hundred a year now she rated her at two thousand and asked me but I said I did not exactly know her income but it was as good as her sister’s. She asked if any love affair was on her mind. ‘No.’ If she thought of Sir Alexander Mackenzie Mrs S’s nephew? ‘No, I knew she did not like him.’ It came out he had offered to her on a threedays acquaintance and thought at first he had reason to hope but she changed her mind. I said he must have mistaken her civility for something else, she was always civil. Mrs S- said she refused him on the plea of having another attachment. He meant her to have paid his large debts, he had not a sixpence and besides had his mother and her family to keep. I said I thought Miss W- would not marry to pay anyone’s debts nor ought she. Surely Captain would take care that proper settlements were made. She looked as if not expecting this. Poor girl, they want her for some of their kin if they can get her.
Miss W- busy at 1 thing or another but seemed very low at going, said she would rather go with me. Knew she should be miserable there as she was before, felt as if she should never come back, yet smiled and rallied when I joked her about running after me. She seemed quietly bent on being back before June when she thinks I am to be off. Miss W- gave me the little bronze topped stick she [illegible] [illegible] [illegible] [illegible]. Asked for some time [secretly?] but had now forgot. At last I saw them off at 1 ¼. Miss W- & Mrs Sutherland inside & Captain S- & James (McKenzie, Miss W-‘s manservant) in the rumble behind. Heaven be praised said I to myself as I walked homewards, that they are off and that I have got rid of her and am once more free.
Called at Washington’s & left with Mrs W- a sovereign for Mr Armitage which Miss W- had forgot to give him on the account of the missionary society & a message to W- to tell him to pay for 2 children at a little school. Strode along my walk, home at 2 10. Mrs Henry Priestly & Mrs Dyson of Willow Ford & Miss Edwards of Pye Nest here. Went into the drawing room to pray for 20 minutes, very civil to all participants. Mrs H. P. there from 2 35 all the afternoon with [illegible] & I [illegible] [illegible] in the [illegible] fitting the wainscot doors to the 2 large [illegible] cupboards till dinner at 6 ¼. Afterwards read the last 62 pages Lathobe’s “alpenstock” on travels in part in Switzerland. Asleep some time. Went into the little room at 9 ½ & came upstairs at 10 ½. Rainy windy wild sort of day & [illegible] & very high wind now at 11pm at which F 47⁰. Found on the desk on coming home KW letter for [illegible] [illegible] But I did not open it, determined to leave it till I could answer it tomorrow. Have [illegible] [illegible] for Miss Norcliffe, Langton directed by C. N. Sat by John tonight to the post, the 2 letters Mrs Sutherland gave into my charge to James Sutherland Esq, Waterloo Estate, St, Vincent, W. Indies & to Mrs Alexander Macleod, Tousame[?] Estate, St. Vincent, W. Indies.
Margin: Sent my kind regards to Mrs Sutherland and begged to tell how Miss W- was on her arrival at Inverness as I thought it better not to write to Miss W-, it would only be a harass to her. The captain looked, said nothing but seemed surprised? Mrs Sutherland [agreed] to tell me how Miss W- bore her journey to Inverness.
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